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July 13th, 2009
May 30th, 2009
Limits as a Reason to Live
Man is finite, frail and ultimately limited by physical capability, cognitive aptitude and an entire slew of modifiers that set boundaries as to what we can do within our numbered days on God's green earth.
It is widely accepted that it is this realization of a coming death, of limited time and limitations that give us as humans the drive to live. However, is this not an irrational and for that matter, an illogical path to tread upon? For, if man were indeed a rational being, then it must follow that if man were aware that he is to die eventually then to live would ultimately be futile as in the end man will ultimately die anyway making all that he has worked for in vain.
Why then would man take such a seemingly illogical step? Why would man choose to live if in the end he would simply die?
Perhaps, it is man's need for validation? Well yes that could easily be true... but, I believe it is something more than simple validation of a person's deeds and relationships whilst he or she was alive. I believe it is actually much less benevolent than that.
Maybe, man's ultimate reason for living is to get a leg up on someone. I for one believe the feeling of taking advantage or having one up against someone is one of the most satisfying sensations one could ever have. Limitations as set upon us by biological, social, economic etc. factors are things we wish to always overcome. "To be more than what you are", to do more, "MAGIS". These are merely ways of positively viewing the idea of getting a leg up on someone, of taking advantage of someone or something. Circumventing the rules per se to better have an edge. In the end though, the notions of "To do the more" and "To go beyond your limitations" as well as "Impossible is Nothing" are simply benevolent views on a baser human instinct of always trying to gain the upper hand. Limitations can be seen as rules and every time someone goes beyond these limits, e.g. going places man was never INTENDED to go to (e.g. top of Mt. Everest, the Moon etc.) then it is analogous to breaking or circumventing rules and regulations in the process of going beyond your limitations, gaining the upper hand. Against who? God.
But perhaps, it is through these limitations that God has worked in a mysterious way. For without limits set upon us, why else would we take an illogical step and actually live in spite of our coming deaths? It is precisely because of these known limits, limits that we wish to overcome, to circumvent and ultimately master and in the process gain the upper hand do we as humans thrive and flourish and actually live. Without these limits, we would simply sit sedentarily awaiting for our selves to succumb to eternal slumber.
So go ahead, break those rules, circumvent convention and live. Never take "you can't get what you want all the time" as an answer for if you try hard enough you can always get what you want, when you want it at any time. Man is by nature limited, but is by will and destiny limitless. Thrive. Flourish.
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When people loathe you, feel proud.
They wouldn't loathe you if you weren't better than them :)
Flaunt it if you got it. Let them die of envy and inferiority.
You can always get what you want.
Man is finite, frail and ultimately limited by physical capability, cognitive aptitude and an entire slew of modifiers that set boundaries as to what we can do within our numbered days on God's green earth.
It is widely accepted that it is this realization of a coming death, of limited time and limitations that give us as humans the drive to live. However, is this not an irrational and for that matter, an illogical path to tread upon? For, if man were indeed a rational being, then it must follow that if man were aware that he is to die eventually then to live would ultimately be futile as in the end man will ultimately die anyway making all that he has worked for in vain.
Why then would man take such a seemingly illogical step? Why would man choose to live if in the end he would simply die?
Perhaps, it is man's need for validation? Well yes that could easily be true... but, I believe it is something more than simple validation of a person's deeds and relationships whilst he or she was alive. I believe it is actually much less benevolent than that.
Maybe, man's ultimate reason for living is to get a leg up on someone. I for one believe the feeling of taking advantage or having one up against someone is one of the most satisfying sensations one could ever have. Limitations as set upon us by biological, social, economic etc. factors are things we wish to always overcome. "To be more than what you are", to do more, "MAGIS". These are merely ways of positively viewing the idea of getting a leg up on someone, of taking advantage of someone or something. Circumventing the rules per se to better have an edge. In the end though, the notions of "To do the more" and "To go beyond your limitations" as well as "Impossible is Nothing" are simply benevolent views on a baser human instinct of always trying to gain the upper hand. Limitations can be seen as rules and every time someone goes beyond these limits, e.g. going places man was never INTENDED to go to (e.g. top of Mt. Everest, the Moon etc.) then it is analogous to breaking or circumventing rules and regulations in the process of going beyond your limitations, gaining the upper hand. Against who? God.
But perhaps, it is through these limitations that God has worked in a mysterious way. For without limits set upon us, why else would we take an illogical step and actually live in spite of our coming deaths? It is precisely because of these known limits, limits that we wish to overcome, to circumvent and ultimately master and in the process gain the upper hand do we as humans thrive and flourish and actually live. Without these limits, we would simply sit sedentarily awaiting for our selves to succumb to eternal slumber.
So go ahead, break those rules, circumvent convention and live. Never take "you can't get what you want all the time" as an answer for if you try hard enough you can always get what you want, when you want it at any time. Man is by nature limited, but is by will and destiny limitless. Thrive. Flourish.
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When people loathe you, feel proud.
They wouldn't loathe you if you weren't better than them :)
Flaunt it if you got it. Let them die of envy and inferiority.
You can always get what you want.
April 16th, 2009
Unsych
on:off
on:off
off:on
off:on
x|on:on|x
god... sorry...but sometimes... it just sucks...
attention span of a spoon indeed
fuuuu---
hahahaha
I told you to leap
now who is left to break it?
it's like having Bodhi 24/7
still happy though... strange how that is...
on:off
on:off
off:on
off:on
x|on:on|x
god... sorry...but sometimes... it just sucks...
attention span of a spoon indeed
fuuuu---
hahahaha
I told you to leap
now who is left to break it?
it's like having Bodhi 24/7
still happy though... strange how that is...
March 19th, 2009
Cancer. The bad boy of the cell world. Breaks all the rules that govern what it is to be a cell. A beast? or a god?
I am happy
:D
I am happy
:D
March 17th, 2009
This semester has given me a strange and rather fresh set of eyes to view the world I live in. Now, it comes to an end. A culmination of the tribulation and trepidation of the semester that is and is about to pass into the past.
Soon, I shall look back upon this semester not as an is, but as a was and think to myself, "was there anything I really learned from all of this?" and I shall stare blankly into the great beyond and not know the answer. All I can do is hope that what I think and feel shall be true in spite of not receiving a single iota of confirmation or validation from without and within.
>>>
A field of gold lies before me, surrounds me, engulfs me. My fingers fickle, fondle the swaying stalks of gold at the level of my waist. The breeze is cool to my skin and the sun rising upon the horizon, warms me with its first golden rays. Serene. Calming. Invigorating. I drink it all in. The first crisp wisps of the morning fill me. I close my eyes to better savor the moment laid out before me. I take it all in.
The tranquility is then shattered by a scream. A fearful, agonized scream. Terrifying.
I cover my ears to block the piercing trill out. It is useless. The screams get louder and louder.
I realize then, to my horror, the source of the Anguished cries... I.
My world is torn asunder.
Soon, I shall look back upon this semester not as an is, but as a was and think to myself, "was there anything I really learned from all of this?" and I shall stare blankly into the great beyond and not know the answer. All I can do is hope that what I think and feel shall be true in spite of not receiving a single iota of confirmation or validation from without and within.
>>>
A field of gold lies before me, surrounds me, engulfs me. My fingers fickle, fondle the swaying stalks of gold at the level of my waist. The breeze is cool to my skin and the sun rising upon the horizon, warms me with its first golden rays. Serene. Calming. Invigorating. I drink it all in. The first crisp wisps of the morning fill me. I close my eyes to better savor the moment laid out before me. I take it all in.
The tranquility is then shattered by a scream. A fearful, agonized scream. Terrifying.
I cover my ears to block the piercing trill out. It is useless. The screams get louder and louder.
I realize then, to my horror, the source of the Anguished cries... I.
My world is torn asunder.
February 22nd, 2009
Guhhh midnight munchies...nooo
Consumed:
-1 Bowl Wei-wei instant noodles (it was fucking spicy....how the hell was I supposed to know it was written in some asian language...)
-1 cup Hot Coco mmmmmm...
-1 glass fruit juice
and now...I feel restless...and I have NMAT review in...... 3,4,5,6,7,8... 6 hours...guh GG... -.-
KK...gonna try and get some shuteye now...
-> I want a waffle for breakfast (with peanut butter), a bar of swiss chocolate and a hot cup of hazelnut coffee... IF i wake up on time... ;D
Consumed:
-1 Bowl Wei-wei instant noodles (it was fucking spicy....how the hell was I supposed to know it was written in some asian language...)
-1 cup Hot Coco mmmmmm...
-1 glass fruit juice
and now...I feel restless...and I have NMAT review in...... 3,4,5,6,7,8... 6 hours...guh GG... -.-
KK...gonna try and get some shuteye now...
-> I want a waffle for breakfast (with peanut butter), a bar of swiss chocolate and a hot cup of hazelnut coffee... IF i wake up on time... ;D
February 20th, 2009
I know what I deserve and I have no other recourse than to take everything in. I will understand and accept everything I deserve. But to understand and accept does not entail softening the blow or dulling the sting of the tide of anguish I am heir to have borne...
February 14th, 2009
So its valentine's day and what a better way for me to start it than with a show of love... A love for technology :) so i was skimming through the app store for my iphone... And stumbled upon this app that lets me post to my lj acct from my phone :D well it did cost 9.99 USD but mehhh... This is cool! :D suffice it to say... This is just a test post to see if this thing actually works :) so im gonna write my v-day post later in the day... And done :)
-- Post From My iPhone
-- Post From My iPhone
February 8th, 2009
A moment is all that is needed. We are not condemned to stasis or placidity. We invariably strain ourselves to break free from the clutches of the immanence of the world... of our lives. Though we live in a world with others and are somehow bound to their views and judgments... In the moment that we are presented the opportunity to be granted release from the inhumane subjugation we encounter, we are presented with a choice. Break free from the bonds of the world, bonds we have in a sense restrained upon ourselves and in the process, rupture, traumatize the very essence of what we once knew to be the world and as though by means of an intense ripple tear through the very fabric of normalcy and ideas of what would be proper, decent and acceptable. In this cacophonous and chaotic event we find ourselves lost and confused. We suddenly feel an intense fear and terror at the realization that at this ripple's very center we are there. Then, the realization is fully crystallized and we are given this horrifying crystal clear view of the world in chaos. We are the very epicenter of this turbulent shock that has sent the world careening and plummeting to the ground to be swallowed up by the hungry abyss. We scream in anguish and pain as we cannot help but blame ourselves for this apocalyptic event of our world. We become anguish and pain itself. The truth has become so glaring and monstrous at the same time to us that we, like the tyrant, are tempted to gouge our eyes out in the moment of realization and here is the true choice presented to us. Are we to give in again to the whims of the world, to save the world, do we blind ourselves yet again and once again hoist the yoke of it squarely upon our shoulders or do we let out a defiant yell and scream out in fury to forever banish the world we once knew into oblivion for the sake of our own selfish desires of liberty and freedom from the inhumanity we are well acquainted with and know? Do we give in to our own selfish desires of transcendence in exchange for the destruction of the world we once knew or do we chain ourselves down again for the sake of preserving all that we once knew, cherished and loved?
This is the choice we are faced with.
But then, the question lingers, is the world we know, cherish and love really ours to behold if we find ourselves nailed down, chained and enslaved?
The I must now decide.
This is the choice we are faced with.
But then, the question lingers, is the world we know, cherish and love really ours to behold if we find ourselves nailed down, chained and enslaved?
The I must now decide.
I never thought I could do something like that...and well all is well...that is all... :) gigol... XD
February 6th, 2009
I don't like him... I hate him...and all that he stands for... But...I have to put up with the BS...so fiiine...
Why am I even complaining... I lived a life of cloak and dagger and I complain when I happen to be the mark... Well...duh...
How am I to start a life of renewal when the world is intent on dwelling on the past... I try to drop my shadows and demons yet the world seems hell bent on keeping them on my back... I try to stop the dishonesty and yet the world lies and spits at my face... I am not walking on thin ice... I am walking, balancing...on a thread... a thread of hope... with the width of a hair strand...
OH GOD I HATE IT SO MUCH.... I HAAAATE HIIIIM>>>>>>>>>>>>> GAHHHHHHHHHH... and I do not know why people protect him from my righteous fury... Justice has so far been hard on me...yet he gets away scot free... not a ding, not a scratch not a single scathing remark... and I...my swordarm... dangles flaccidly in the wind... impotent... garrrrr... I HOPE HE BURNS IN HELL... if I have to take him with me to douse him in the soul flaying heat of hellfire then so be it... I can only take so much personal insult...
You will have your day... You will fall, slip or make a mistake... let it be known... I WILL BE THERE when that happens... and when it does... I WILL DESTROY you... I WILL take everything that you hold dear to your heart and burn it before your very eyes and you will have no other choice but to watch as I dismantle every single thing that holds your world together... I will meticulously dismember your world from the surface to the core, I will flay you alive...slowly and in every sense of the word...and mark me you son of a bitch... I WILL revel in it and cackle with glee... I would raise you from the dead just to kill you again slowly... that's how much I hate you...
Why am I even complaining... I lived a life of cloak and dagger and I complain when I happen to be the mark... Well...duh...
How am I to start a life of renewal when the world is intent on dwelling on the past... I try to drop my shadows and demons yet the world seems hell bent on keeping them on my back... I try to stop the dishonesty and yet the world lies and spits at my face... I am not walking on thin ice... I am walking, balancing...on a thread... a thread of hope... with the width of a hair strand...
OH GOD I HATE IT SO MUCH.... I HAAAATE HIIIIM>>>>>>>>>>>>> GAHHHHHHHHHH... and I do not know why people protect him from my righteous fury... Justice has so far been hard on me...yet he gets away scot free... not a ding, not a scratch not a single scathing remark... and I...my swordarm... dangles flaccidly in the wind... impotent... garrrrr... I HOPE HE BURNS IN HELL... if I have to take him with me to douse him in the soul flaying heat of hellfire then so be it... I can only take so much personal insult...
You will have your day... You will fall, slip or make a mistake... let it be known... I WILL BE THERE when that happens... and when it does... I WILL DESTROY you... I WILL take everything that you hold dear to your heart and burn it before your very eyes and you will have no other choice but to watch as I dismantle every single thing that holds your world together... I will meticulously dismember your world from the surface to the core, I will flay you alive...slowly and in every sense of the word...and mark me you son of a bitch... I WILL revel in it and cackle with glee... I would raise you from the dead just to kill you again slowly... that's how much I hate you...
January 16th, 2009
one.
yell.
false.
alone.
waited.
nothing.
broken.
karma.
failure.
stupid.
why.
ex.
ZZzzzz...
yell.
false.
alone.
waited.
nothing.
broken.
karma.
failure.
stupid.
why.
ex.
ZZzzzz...
January 13th, 2009
HA! Karma is one mean son of a bitch...you dole out bad things...you get false hopes in return... the right/proper way I suppose is just to take karma's justice graciously... but nooo...not me good sirs... I for one am not taking shit sitting down... so ha! daddy is going out to town tonight... with friends... screw philosophy lol... eh well the world tried to teach me a lesson... i simply threw it back at it... hard to teach an old dog new tricks...so guess what? the bitch is back...hahahahaha!!!
Can't believe I got runny over that... gawd... game face is back on...
good night and pleasant morrow all XD
Can't believe I got runny over that... gawd... game face is back on...
good night and pleasant morrow all XD
January 9th, 2009
January 7th, 2009
Tag Drei, could be better. I think it should be on neutral with the handbrake up. Why write things you don't want to be seen (such as this LJ)? Maybe it's true? Philosophy dictates that whatever is true will eventually bubble up to the surface. (Ahhh the wonders of insight!) Yet, if taken out of context or revealed in the wrong time and place. It just looks like a lie. (Sein und Zeit) Beenden der Tag mit einen Hoffnung und alles ist fein.
January 5th, 2009
Hmmm...after proper self-assessment and external validation...I would have to say...yeah...I'm OK...
OK but not great... I mean it's not as bad as I thought it would be...but not as a great as I would have hoped for...
but hey it's a start...as a little midget once told me... take little baby steps... ah yes...minute bits of wisom I see...hahahahaha... XD
I must say the Philippine Heart Center is a place to be to treat hearts...say whut? (parang duh...heart center nga eh...engers... -_- )
na na nana naa na na na na can we................ yuuun laaaang... alam na... hahahaha GG XD I know I shouldn't be this I dunno...hindi naman happy siguro...ummm amused(?) by it? but GJ...the clevarness does not die I say...hahahaha XD
But hey time can be a wonderful and amazing thing I suppose :)
OK but not great... I mean it's not as bad as I thought it would be...but not as a great as I would have hoped for...
but hey it's a start...as a little midget once told me... take little baby steps... ah yes...minute bits of wisom I see...hahahahaha... XD
I must say the Philippine Heart Center is a place to be to treat hearts...say whut? (parang duh...heart center nga eh...engers... -_- )
na na nana naa na na na na can we................ yuuun laaaang... alam na... hahahaha GG XD I know I shouldn't be this I dunno...hindi naman happy siguro...ummm amused(?) by it? but GJ...the clevarness does not die I say...hahahaha XD
But hey time can be a wonderful and amazing thing I suppose :)
January 1st, 2009
Happy New Year!!! :D
it's already quiet...o.o
ran outta firecrackers...fast...
ran outta fun... fast...
hope this year doesn't run out that fast... (or maybe i do) hahahaha XD
it's already quiet...o.o
ran outta firecrackers...fast...
ran outta fun... fast...
hope this year doesn't run out that fast... (or maybe i do) hahahaha XD
December 31st, 2008
Glad I had that talk...even if I did not deserve it...
everything to this year stays to this year... :)
Nowhere to go but up. Nothing left to lose. I only have time and time is gold.
The great thing with mistakes is that after the grief and regret it presents you now with a choice. The choice to make things right or keep on making the mistakes of the past. Mistakes are inexplicably tied, ironically, with hope. The hope that with the mistake done and passed... the choice to learn and move on and live a better life is given.
Sometimes, (or most of the time) you have to lose something to realize it's true worth... and to lose something means that now you have the chance, the hope to work for it and gain it back.
Now, I am at a crossroads to actually start the year right. Start the year for the better. Own up to my mistakes, live with my mistakes but ultimately, learn from them and change for the better.
Mistakes are meant to be learned from and the application starts now. Time to get my act together.
So it is without fear or reservation that I can say... "I will start things right and see everything through"
But, this may simply be an impetuous remark by a hard stung being... so... I suppose... I can start things right... but can I live things right from now on? Well... I guess only time will tell... and as far as it stands... time is the only thing I have on my side right now.
So here is to the coming new year and the hope that I can start my life anew on the right foot. :)
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE :)
magbago na tayong lahat! hahahaha XD
and oh day 5-7 (dec 29-31)
AIRSOFT!!!! ARGHHHH!!!
my family bought 4 airsoft rifles in a span of 2 days... been playing wargames with my cousins for the past 2 as well... and ITS FUUUN!!!! and painful...coz we thought just a face mask would suffice as protective gear...apparently...well i have pictures to show! hahahaha
(yeah...my uncle snuck up on me and kinda unloaded half a magazine of pellets on my arm... -_-")
So yeah! I think I'm gonna pick up a new hobby! hahahaha! XD
no a windbreaker is not sufficient protection...
Heading back to Manila in a few hours too...so yeah... :)
fun times :)
everything to this year stays to this year... :)
Nowhere to go but up. Nothing left to lose. I only have time and time is gold.
The great thing with mistakes is that after the grief and regret it presents you now with a choice. The choice to make things right or keep on making the mistakes of the past. Mistakes are inexplicably tied, ironically, with hope. The hope that with the mistake done and passed... the choice to learn and move on and live a better life is given.
Sometimes, (or most of the time) you have to lose something to realize it's true worth... and to lose something means that now you have the chance, the hope to work for it and gain it back.
Now, I am at a crossroads to actually start the year right. Start the year for the better. Own up to my mistakes, live with my mistakes but ultimately, learn from them and change for the better.
Mistakes are meant to be learned from and the application starts now. Time to get my act together.
So it is without fear or reservation that I can say... "I will start things right and see everything through"
But, this may simply be an impetuous remark by a hard stung being... so... I suppose... I can start things right... but can I live things right from now on? Well... I guess only time will tell... and as far as it stands... time is the only thing I have on my side right now.
So here is to the coming new year and the hope that I can start my life anew on the right foot. :)
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE :)
magbago na tayong lahat! hahahaha XD
and oh day 5-7 (dec 29-31)
AIRSOFT!!!! ARGHHHH!!!
my family bought 4 airsoft rifles in a span of 2 days... been playing wargames with my cousins for the past 2 as well... and ITS FUUUN!!!! and painful...coz we thought just a face mask would suffice as protective gear...apparently...well i have pictures to show! hahahaha
(yeah...my uncle snuck up on me and kinda unloaded half a magazine of pellets on my arm... -_-")
So yeah! I think I'm gonna pick up a new hobby! hahahaha! XD
no a windbreaker is not sufficient protection...
Heading back to Manila in a few hours too...so yeah... :)
fun times :)
December 30th, 2008
New year is coming up...
so... I promise to grow up...yun na lang...
as simple as that... :)
Fresh start...(well not as fresh maybe...)
but oh! what say you we just leave everything hellish in this hellish year and start new happy things next year? hahahaha :)
I'm ready for a new year!
everything is clear!
nothing left but excitement and cheer!
so please my dear!
take heart! and have no fear!
oh....what's the pont... bad poems just make me wail and tear...
Time to leave these horrible things
and not bring them to next year...
:)
waiting for good things
hoping for none... :D
so... I promise to grow up...yun na lang...
as simple as that... :)
Fresh start...(well not as fresh maybe...)
but oh! what say you we just leave everything hellish in this hellish year and start new happy things next year? hahahaha :)
I'm ready for a new year!
everything is clear!
nothing left but excitement and cheer!
so please my dear!
take heart! and have no fear!
oh....what's the pont... bad poems just make me wail and tear...
Time to leave these horrible things
and not bring them to next year...
:)
waiting for good things
hoping for none... :D
December 28th, 2008
day 1 (dec 25)
-dinner with my dad's gf's siblings hahahaa...
day 2 (dec 26)
-errr nothing... =/ oh world of warcrafting (yesss...hahahahaha)
day 3 (dec 27)
-flew to zamboanga just for kicks... was at the airport way too early...figured I'd get a massage from the airport massage place...900 bucks for a shitty service...hahahaha
day 4 (dec 28)
-today... went up to my uncle's private estate on the top of a mountain... (dont ask me why he bought the top of a mountain to build a resthouse on...) ate, slept and went back down...just got back down actually...
-cousin bought an airsoft gun... now THAT was fun...
a week and a day left... hahahaha dreading what could be/most probably will be...pero blah...thats life...hahahaha... still... meh :)
-dinner with my dad's gf's siblings hahahaa...
day 2 (dec 26)
-errr nothing... =/ oh world of warcrafting (yesss...hahahahaha)
day 3 (dec 27)
-flew to zamboanga just for kicks... was at the airport way too early...figured I'd get a massage from the airport massage place...900 bucks for a shitty service...hahahaha
day 4 (dec 28)
-today... went up to my uncle's private estate on the top of a mountain... (dont ask me why he bought the top of a mountain to build a resthouse on...) ate, slept and went back down...just got back down actually...
-cousin bought an airsoft gun... now THAT was fun...
a week and a day left... hahahaha dreading what could be/most probably will be...pero blah...thats life...hahahaha... still... meh :)